mee-and-myself

2010-02-19T13:05:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY LAST 5 HOURS to unoffically Graduation! HEHEEE! =)

Today its the last day of IAP!
Which mean after today,
I just have to relax and wait for the graduation day!
SUPER DUPER EXCEITING!!!!!!

Every morning, i used to wake up and unwilling to get ready for work.
But today, i woke up early morning,
wanting to get ready faster,
go to work faster,
so all these will come to the end faster!!

2010-02-14T09:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!

大年初一祝大家新年快乐恭喜发财，万事如意，心想事成，学业进步，财源广进, 虎年行大运!!!!!!!

愿天下的有情人终成眷属, 没有情人的人可以遇见自己的 MR/MISS RIGHT. =)

2010-02-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

- The end - Thinking back of 2009

2009 is bad year for me, as many things happened.
But im gald that ALL IS OVER!
In fact, She changed alot.
Though she became emotional, tends to cry so easily,
Even drama that she wateched before, knowing how the story goes.
I used to find people who cry watching drama were stupid,
but now she ended up being one of the stupid groupp!! HAHAAAA!

It was the year, she was force to learn to be strong and independent.
Things happened, people come and left.
Now She going to smile and face every brand new day!
This year shall be a good good year for me!
The worst have already happened,
There isnt thing that can affect me anymore.
Im damn over you!

2010-02-10T12:26:00.003+08:00

WEEK 11 of IAP
Stepping into second month of 2010. . . . .
I have to admit that time is passing too fast!
My iap will be endig next week.
Soon i will be leding a super slacking n aimless life. HEHE!

ANYWAY Chinese New Year is coming!
Its just this weekend only!!!!!!!!
Doesnt really look forward to that, but just the long weekend.
Suddenly feel that i got alot of thing not yet do, yet i got such limited time!!
How how how how how!????????????????

I think im alittle slow,
I didnt really realise that Chu 1 is also valentine day.
just another year~

2010-01-22T14:34:00.002+08:00

See today date? ITs a FRIDAY!
Once again i need to say this, TGIF!!!! HEHE
Coming to the end of 8th week!
Im already 2/3 done with my attachment!
What left is 4 more weeks and 18more Rounds.lalalala~~
Although i felt iap + fyp is a totally waste of time.
Everyday the same routine, Everyday the same work.
Everyday just waiting for time to pass.........
BUT then i still need to go through this, in order to get my CERT!
AND I will endure no matter what, just for the bloody CERT!

Even this life is so boring and sian to the max.
But i think its kinda of happy also.
At least it keep me occupied and stay away from thinking too much!
i know things always happen, but there is always a way out.
Everything will just going to be alright after some time.
This is what i believed!

My FYP was like 2 months ago,
yet i have already clearly forgotten everything by now!!!!!! XD
BUT i feel like i just completed my FYP like last week only.

2010-01-15T14:27:00.002+08:00

today shall be the first post of this year - 2010.
Its a brand new year, but things still keep happening.
When can bad thing stop happening??
Im asking too much *iguess?*, at least just simple and peacful.

Its my 7th week of IAP, left with 5weeks more!
Just wanna finish get this done, and im officially GRAD!
Nothing got to do with NYP expect for graduation day,
which most likely will be in may? i suppose still kinda long?

2009-12-24T01:02:00.000+08:00

MERRY XMAS EVE~~~~
Today is 24th Dec!!
And Its already christmas EVE!
HALF DAY WORK!! YEAHYEAH~

santa didnt give me my wishlist~
I want my iphone~~ >.<

2009-12-23T15:04:00.000+08:00

IM BOREDDDDD!!!
Having S.333 Gathering in a few hours time!!
Looking forward to it worx!!
HAvent see them for almost a month!!
Wonder how is their attachment work life also~

I seriously missed the laughter and fun we always had.
Shall see them later!!!
Most of them is kinda steady!
All is attending expect for some~

2009-12-21T12:36:00.003+08:00

Week 4 Day 1~

Hmm.. i guess i got to admit time passes kinda fast?
Soon my IAP will be 1/3 DONE!
I wasnt saying IAP is bad, But just dont really like it.
But i got to go through it, if not i cannot grad le~
My 2 1/2 year of study n FYP will be wasted!
No matter how boring it is, i need to bear with it!!!!!
I NEED TO TAHAN!!!!!
Another 8WEEKS going to OVER SOON! *HOPEFULLY!!

Chirstmas is coming in another 4days!
HMMM! how am i going to celebrate it?
I still havent decide.....
Can i dont celebrate it? >.<

2009-12-17T17:15:00.002+08:00

Its thursday!!!! which mean tml is friday!!!!
Im so happy can!!!! one week is going to end soon!!!
End of week 3.. meaning i left with 9weeks more!!
jiayouuu fenn!!! you can do it de!!!

next friday is christmas day, yet i have no plans yet?
Actually my plan was nt to do anything on that day!!
My biggest wish now is to SLEEP!
call me a pig if you want, but i cant give up on my BELOVED SLEEPING TIME!!

She is happy to announce that SHE is GOING TO BE SICK SOON!
She currently having sore throat
it got worsen after her lunch break.
She feeling feverish, but still not yet FEVER.
She feel like taking Mc tml, because i think she seriously need some rest!
HOW?? should i or not??

If someone intent to get me a christmas present...
Here is my wishlist......
Please get her this : IPHONE!!
All i wants for christmas is IPHONE! thanks! HEHEHE

2009-12-15T09:16:00.002+08:00

GOOD MORNING!!! =D
Week 3 Day 2 - Its Tuesday!
im still looking forward to 1800!! HEHE!

I just took the quiz on facbook and....
Recurring Dreams
These dreams may recur daily, once a week, or once a month, but whatever the frequency, there is little variation in the dream content itself. It usually points to a personal weakness, fear, or your inability to cope with something in your life - past or present. The ...repetitive patterns in your dream can reveal some of the most valuable information on yourself. It may point to a conflict, situation or matter in your waking life that remains unresolved or unsettled. Or some urgent underlying message in your unconscious is demanding to be understood.

I guess so too.

2009-12-13T02:33:00.001+08:00

JARED BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!

Now we realise usually jared's birthday celebration is the most grand one.
Remember last year, all of us were zoo, eat seaFOOD and PUB at changi.
The SeaFOOD costed us nearly $500????????
And usually most of us will attend on his celebration.
Its kinda best time for gathering... =)

Meet ming and kiang first to collect the CAKE, and went over to the mind cafe straight. We put the cake there first then went over to meet the rest with jared.

Playing GAMES was fun.Halfway the games, the CAKE come. I guess he was kinda surprised, he didnt thought we will celebrate inside the mind cafe.

After that we walked to bugis, went aracade first as the time was early for the singing session.

ARACADE- My sweet Sweet machine!!
As usual, kiang, jared and me aiming for jackpot. while ming keep saying we wasting money. The prize there was alittle different, we cant choose what we want but by lucky dip. i was kinda lucky, i got 4 bearsss! just nice one for each! =)
pink for ming, milky for jared, brown for kiang and WHITE FOR MEEEE!
I love WHITE Not PINK k!

Lastly, the singing session. WE really had lots of fun! FuLLY ENJOYED!!!

Everything went fine... I guess. =)
SLEEP NEEDED NOW! HEHEHE!

2009-12-12T10:31:00.000+08:00

GOing out for Jared advance birthday celebration.
HMMMM.....
HMMMMMMM.....
HMMMMMMMMMMM...

BLESS ME! =)

2009-12-11T17:28:00.000+08:00

TGIF! Week 2 Day 5 - Its friday!!!!
2Weeks ended kinda fast?
But there will still be 10Weeks more!
Please, i wanna faster end this attachement!!!!

Im feeling freaking tired and sleepy.
My eye like wanna close anytime already.

2009-12-08T21:40:00.002+08:00

Quote from FB:
"Sometimes, you have to accept the fact that some people are going to stay in your heart forever... even if you are gone in theirs."

Anyway TUE IS OVER!!!!
Left with WED, THUR, FRI then here is my weekend again!!!
I guess im starting to like this company already. ^_^

2009-12-04T13:25:00.002+08:00

Same nightmare again.
Why do i keep dreaming about it!

IAP - Week 1 day 5!!
ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!! TGIF!!!!
Steamboat-ing later.. =)
TIME TO RELAX!!

2009-12-02T21:44:00.004+08:00

IM MISSING EVERYTHING IN SCHOOL!!!!!!!!
I miss All my friends - 0708 and S.333 labmate!
I miss walking around level 3,4,5!
I miss the time everyone was slacking together.
I miss when the time that im falling asleep infront of the PC.
I Miss having teh session with xy!
I simplely just miss everything........
I rather have another FYP project,
of course without the parnther will be GREAT!!!! HEHEHEHE
FYP might be an nightmare but IAP is worst than that.

Today its already 3rd Day of attachment!
Doesnt mean attachment wasnt that great.
Everythign there was wonderful.
I got a very nice and friendly sup and people there.
All of them are treating me very well.
I wasnt asked to do programming/java/flash/webbie.
My job scope there was just test case.
Checking the system according to the test list.
I got internet there, which allow to go online msn, FB and tweet.
But i still miss school!
She doesnt feel right when she is in the office. =((

2days more to friday!
One week gonna end!!! BUT I still left with 11weeks!
Which doesnt sound great!

One more thingggggg!!!!
My Phone have gone crazy!!!!
Keep recievind late SMS!
If i happened that i didnt reply/late reply!
FORGIVE/ DONT BLAMEEEE ME K!!
I will call singtel and complaint tml! HEHE

2009-11-29T10:15:00.003+08:00

FENN LOVE THIS SONG! >.<

A song composed by a 17 yrs old girl that had passed away

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃心里有千言万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

我先走了去了好远的地方不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮
所有回忆过去却并不容易生死由天决定不要太伤心

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃心里有千言万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 ho ho...

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里舍不得放弃心里有千言万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你但不要忘记你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我永远爱你

2009-11-28T23:48:00.001+08:00

HOHOHO!
Went to my attachment place to take a look!
Now i know where is it!
And That area still wasnt that bad!! hehe!
But i think i better bring an umbrella out everyday.
Cause got a long walking distance without shelter plus recently is raining season.

Anyway watched newmoon!
MOOD: MIXED FEELING!!!!!!!
The movie still wasnt that bad afterall!
Just the ending........ Hmmmm.
Shall wait for the next series!
I thought i would cry, but i didnt.
Meanwhile i will be reading the books again! =)

2009-11-28T01:58:00.008+08:00

I like this sentence:
"You smile when you feel like crying, you act like you're okay, when you're falling apart inside and you let it go. You move on, because there's nothing else you can do."
Hopefully no more nightmare? i guess?
For the last 2 months, I hate those nights when i was waken up by nightmare.
Now, she know everything going to be okay! because it had to be!
Its already time to get over everything and move on! =)

2009-11-26T23:54:00.003+08:00

Wooooooo! FYP COME TO THE END!

she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy! she is happy!

What other words can she use to discribe her feeling now?
Hmmmm. delighted, pleased, glad??? what else!? HEHEHE!
It was still like yesterday when FYP just started.
Everyday watching video, walking around,
slacking and having so much fun.
Now got to get serious for attachment soon!
I think i will be missing this place, S.333!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOODBYEEEEEEEEE! *Muack!

HOW WAS MY PRESENTATION?
Actually everything didnt went very smoothly.
While i was testing the software on wed, my windows media encoder didnt work! So i asked the DT to help me reformatted the computer again! *Within this 3 months, i think this computer reformatted like about 6 times? seriously giving me alot of trouble! * Then got the naggy breifing which was totally wasting my time! after that, I had to rush back to the lab to install back all the sofeware!
1hour before the presentation, then i realise my DT didnt help me install back VB and CS3! i took almost an hour to install the VB. luckily it complete installing 10min before my presentation? HAHAHA!

Surprise 1 : My marker!
I always thought he is those problematic people, he got the very MEAN look. BUT he was actually a very nice guy! =) He did ask any werid Question, in fact not many just afew. Everything went quite smoothly after that!

Anyway!
Im guess i was already kind enough, wanting to explain and hand over everything to my parnter. but he left me with "just leave on the table and he left the lab". Im seriously sorry and sadly to say that im NOT GOING TO ENTERTIAN anyone regarding about that project.
Firstly, i will be having my IAP, so I wont be free.
Secondly, i will be deleting everything away from my thumbdrive
Because SCHOOL COMPUTER have virus!!
Terrible Virus!!!!! I guess my desktop also tio le!!!! =(
Thirdly, i cant find any reason to do so.
LASTLY, I DONT FEEL LIKE! =X
I only help people that is worth and deserve helping .
Anyway im done with this whole project! nobody shall bother it with me. =)

2009-11-25T21:35:00.004+08:00

Attachment location : Geylang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even though i wished my company location to be in the east,
But i never expect its at that area. =.=
Somemore im attached to the company alone! siannn =(
Pleaseeeeeee, dont let me encounter any werid/funny people.
I just want a safe n sound 12 weeks.

Researched on the company already.
Should be those telecommunication company.
i think most likely i will be working as call operater?
Does that mean no internet/computer for me?

2009-11-25T12:50:00.002+08:00

Words Women Use and What They Really Mean:

Fine - This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use “fine” to describe how a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments.

Five Minutes - This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the rubbish, so it’s an even trade.

Nothing - This means “something”, and you should be on your toes. “Nothing” is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. “Nothing” usually signifies an argument that will last “Five Minutes” and end with “Fine”.

Go Ahead - At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.
Go Ahead (With Raised Eyebrows) - This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over “Nothing” and will end with the word “Fine”.
Go Ahead (Neutral Expression) - This means “I give up” or “do what you want because I don’t care” You will get a “Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead” in just a few minutes, followed by “Nothing” and “Fine” and she will talk to you in about “Five Minutes” when she cools off.

Loud Sigh - This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A “Loud Sigh” means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over “Nothing”.

Soft Sigh - Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. “Soft Sighs” mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.

That’s Okay - This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. “That’s Okay” means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. “That’s Okay” is often used with the word “Fine” and in conjunction with a “Raised Eyebrow”.

Please Do - This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be careful and you shouldn’t get a “That’s Okay”.

Thanks - A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say you’re welcome.
Thanks A Lot - This is much different from “Thanks.” A woman will say, “Thanks A Lot” when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the “Loud Sigh.” Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the “Loud Sigh,” as she will only tell you “Nothing”.

2009-11-24T10:30:00.002+08:00

today is tuesday.

My lab is kinda quiet now,
Feeling like im back to the time during week 1 -6
just that there is "someone" sitting beside me and just that computer.
I think i guess to admit im kinda bad mood/temper during these period,
As i got pissed off very easily, seriously very very very easily.
*guys, please dont try my limit.

Can someone please make her smile?

2009-11-20T09:47:00.004+08:00

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

caught in bad romance~

2009-11-19T20:05:00.002+08:00

2days MC. SHIOK ARH! =))
i didnt went school this 2days.
got scolding from my doctor, he warned me of eating my meal regularly.
PLUS he say my knee might left scar!!!! siann!
Anyone please tell me why and how did i fell down??
The floor is flat, there isnt any stair or what.

Fatty fen got fatter!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So sian! think recently ate too much junk food le.
Shall cut down on my junk food!~!~!~!~!~
People! if you happened to see her eating junk food, please stop her
tell her she is fat and need to jianfei, thanks. >.<

COuntDown-ING : 5moreRounds!
Next week is already last week of my FYP!
12weeks passes so fast and i think i had lots of funs.
Think i will miss fyp life. =X
timetable for next week presentation still not out yet?
Why our lab is always the last to know?

Briefing for iap next week!
Until now still dont know where im attached to.
*Bless*
1. Location is in the east/ somewhere nearby!!!!
2. Nice Company!????? At least no annoying or irrating people?
3. Slacking job? i dont mind beinging a coffee girl?
if not they can ask me to do anything that i know?

2009-11-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

Guesssss!!!!!
who is this golden hair girl in our lab???????

In the process, with xiangyun help.
manage to guess who is this?

The answer is luntat. HAHAHAHA!
Trying to put xiangyun wig.

Hmmmm. fenn have no comments on the photo. XD

2009-11-16T10:41:00.004+08:00

today isnt raining,
but why am i still feeling freaking cold?
somemore today doesnt seem like a MONDAY to meeeee!
i also dont know why, so dont bother to ask why.

something doesnt seem right! >.<

2009-11-12T14:45:00.004+08:00

Day 3 after i fell.
I think it was a great fell?
At least i vent all my ...... out already. HOHOHO!
Now, kinda back to normal already?
its my work that is affecting me,Or something else?
Something keep appearing in my head
whenever i wanting to do my work.
Shall hack care!
its not going to be my business anyway.
Back to be a kind soul. >.<

Havent had a good good sleep!
Plus now my knee got this injury, sleeping is suck.
Whenever i move/walk, suddenly like so painfully.
But i think that jap cream is working already.
Its starting to dry already...
Hopefully no scar will left behind.

I have finished my mission for the past 2 days.
Completed redo my flash,AES and 90% of report.
Shall start editing the presentation slides
& make sure nothing goes wrong. =)

I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY!
I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY!
I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY!
I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY!
I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY!
I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY!
I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY!
I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY! I WANT MY FRIDAY!

3hours more to end school.
9hours more to friday.

This isnt right.

2009-11-11T09:10:00.004+08:00

Bad Bad DAY!

I WANT MY FYP TO END NOW!
I WANT THIS TO BE MY WEEK 12 PLEASE!
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME GET RID OF........

My sup is seriously finding trouble for me!
I now have to "Redo" my flash!
Fennn, please bear with everything!
Its going to be over soon, real soon!!!!!!!
Stop venting your anger~

After feel so..... for the whole day,
I fell down on my way home and seriously its super malu!!!!!!!!!!!
My sister was still laughing and asking me to "show off" my injury.
Then my sister BF came out with a sentence "help her apply the cream from jap".
how nice of him right?? BUT applying the cream was like a torture to me!

THAT HOLY CREAM! The moment the cream was apply to my wound, i seriously feel like screaming! IT IS SUPER DUPER PAINFUL! like million of ants biting that wound. Actually my injury wasnt that serious, it just happened to be on my knee. So i can "feel" something when i walk, sit or move~

BLESS ME!!!!! I want a better day!

Question: The Twilight Marathon on 02 Dec
Should i watch marthon or just the movie??????? Or anyone is interested to watch with me. I think by that time we will start having our iap. I know i wont really like new moon, cause i still find twilight and breaking dawn the best. New moon and eclipse are alittle suck. Actually whenever i think of this movie i felt so siann, BUT for the sake of Robert Pattinson, i will still go watch. I still think he is the coolest. bleahh. =P

2009-11-10T10:40:00.002+08:00

Suddenly down with all the sian-ness!
I think its because i dont have much to do already.
Losing all the mood for doing work.
Feel like going home now and sleep now.

2009-11-03T01:09:00.000+08:00

One month more. . . .

The Twilight Sage: New Moon

Im not that looking forward to this movie anymore.
Maybe just not as before. =)

2009-11-02T17:17:00.003+08:00

GG of my LAPPY!!
This time is COMFIRM PLUS CHOP CHOP GG already.
Lappy no cure! =X
Luckily i dont have to use it now already. Do i?

Week 9 Day 1.
She is trying to do her best.
Im about 75% done with my project within one week?
I have finished my programming part, my website and flash.
Now what i need to do is to see what i can improve!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)
Plus my final report and presentation.
I got to pray hard my relay dont spoil again.
EVERYTHING, PLEASE GO THE RIGHT WAY OKAY! hohohoho~

Conculsion : MIT ROCKS!
If you understand, then understand............ Else its okay!

2009-10-30T08:55:00.001+08:00

Week 8 Day 5.
Soon the end of week 8 and i left 4 weeks of FYP! =)

2009-10-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

ITs not raining today, but yet im feeling so down.

Everything is not right.
Ever since my FYP started, nothing seem right for me. "Something" bad always happen when i want to work hard, why cant everything go smoothly for me? >_<

2009-10-28T08:46:00.002+08:00

Just for today. =)

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it. -- Groucho Marx

Gambatta fenn!!!
She know she can do it.

2009-10-26T22:46:00.001+08:00

im still not a fake IT/SEG student? HAHA!
At least i still know how "LAN" and "WAN" work? XD
I cured my Router faulty already!

2009-10-22T13:44:00.003+08:00

Front Row : Shamin, Kenneth, Luntat, Melvyn, Keith
Back Row: BATMAN?!?!?!, Huifen, Jieying, Atiqah, Halifah, Sarah, Pegan
Missing In Action : LeeEng, Suet, Nora, Eunice, Maurice, Nigel, Kartik, . . . . . . . .
Done by melvyn! =) *Is this part of your project?
Class 0708 With BATMAN!!!!
Celebration of LUNTAT Birthday!
But why is the Batman standing beside me? =X

2009-10-21T09:01:00.003+08:00

I learn a new terms. =)

commitment phobia

Fear of commitment in much popular literature refers to avoidance of long-term partnership and/or marriage but the problem is often much more pervasive, affecting school, work, and home life as well.

The term commitmentphobia was coined in the popular self-help book Men Who Can't Love in 1987. Following criticism of the perceived sexist idea that only men were commitmentphobic, the authors provided a more gender balanced model of commitmentphobia in a later work, He's Scared, She's Scared.

Commitmentphobia is often most strongly apparent in romantic life. Generally, commitmentphobic people claim that they are eager to find a lasting romantic attachment and get married, yet they fail to find appropriate partners and maintain longlasting connections. Ironically, in these romantic relationships, the commitmentphobic partner craves what he/she fears most: love and connection. This paradoxical craving for a frightening reality leads to a confusing and destructive pattern of seduction and rejection. The results are emotionally devastating.

The key to understanding commitmentphobia is recognizing that such behavior is rooted in fear—fear of lost options or fear of making poor decisions. The commitmentphobic mind sees decisions as permanent, opening the possibility of being caged or trapped forever with no means of escape. Commitmentphobia is a real disabling fear, that can be manifest in many areas of life, including career, home ownership, or even shoe shopping. This fear can make simple every day decisions into a tremendous burden.

To assuage their anxieties, many commitmentphobics become fantasy-driven, using their active imaginations to fill in for the lack of emotional security and closeness in their lives. Of course, these fantasies pose additional problems because no potential partner, car, or job can ever live up to the fantasy. Commitmentphobics are also prone to self-destructive behavior, such as walking out on partners or jobs without notice, leaving themselves and the people in their lives in untenable situations.

One potentially misleading aspect of commitmentphobic behavior is that the partner who is actively running away from commitment is not the only one with a problem. In fact, commitmentphobic behavior includes "settling" for inappropriate partners, pursuing unattainable partners, and engaging in instant relationship mergers as well as fleeing from what might have appeared to be a stable romance. Any persistent behavior that actively prevents a person from making a commitment or allows a person to make excuses for not having made a commitment can be considered commitmentphobic.

Comments : Werid!

I think i have this? do i? HAHA!

2009-10-19T20:45:00.007+08:00

You have nothing to worry about because whatever problem you are faced with ends with a solution. (That is the nature of a problem. The solution is not separate from it, but the other part of it, just as up and down define each other.) You either fix it and continue with your plans, or the problem destroys the current trajectory of your life and you head off on another path. One set of solutions is positive, the other negative, but one way or another, the problem is solved.

In most cases, no matter how bad the problem you are faced with seems, for some reason you evolved a powerful instinct to survive, and that is going to be what drives you to solve your problem and go on with life. But you know that at some point, in all likelihood, you’ll meet a problem which resolves itself in your death. You may hate admitting that, but there is no getting around it (that I know of), and when you die you won’t have the problem anymore, and the world may mourn you but it will certainly go on, until one day it dies and it will be as if you and everyone else never were.

This doesn’t mean “Don’t worry.” Worrying is natural, so is sadness, grief… When the worry turns to a fear that consumes us, having faith that everything will be okay is the relief. Existence is a strange blend, a state where opposites are inextricably linked, and it’s just going to do its thing. Existence is going to be violent and peaceful, happy and sad, black and white, up and down, off and on, everything and nothing, the same as it always has. Whatever God is, your existence now is proof positive that God will take care of you, God will always find a place for you to be or not to be.

Worrying and being able to solve your problems are really just tricks you play to engage your interest until you come to the point where you can no longer find things interesting or boring.

When I get depressed, these are the thoughts that pass the time now, because generally I get depressed about things that don’t need me to directly worry about my survival or comfort. I think, “Now I am in the trough of the wave,” and I think about the ocean of crests and troughs to come. But there is a time and a place for this sort of passivity, and you’ll know it when your mind insists on it out of exhaustion. Just because everything will certainly be OK doesn’t mean you should squander, give up, or ignore the faculties you have that can help you deal with your problems.

"May we never let the things we can't have, or don't have, or shouldn't have, spoil our enjoyment of the things we do have and can have. As we value our happiness let us not forget it, for one of the greatest lessons in life is learning to be happy without the things we cannot or should not have."

女人，长得漂亮不如活得漂亮 =)

2009-10-19T10:17:00.004+08:00

SCHOOL IS CRAZY!
First day of school reopen, and its freaking crowded.
I still perfer the haunted school,
that i used to have for the past 6 weeks.
Now feeling so werid when im in my lab. =X

Everything Happens For A Reason

2009-10-16T13:51:00.003+08:00

Woooo! Its friday again.
Coming to the end of week 6. Time files! =)
Done with my mid-fyp presentation.
My marker not very nice, keep asking question.
Making my life so hard? >.<
Shall be it,
Next week someone will be joining me for hell. xD
Hate the temperature in mylab when it rains.!

OKAY!
Im super duper tired now.
Slept at 1200, but woke up at 1230.
All thanks to my sister and her boyfriend. =.=
Luckily i manage to sleep back at around 3am?
So total i slept for around 3 1/2 hours?
Having a bad headache now. i miss my bed. >.<

Everything happens for a reason, what’s supposed to happen will happen… if things don’t go your way, it can be stressful, painful, and hard, but you don’t always have to be in control. It’s all just a part of the grand scheme of things. Don’t let your emotions cloud your vision. Don’t ever fail to see the bigger picture. You may not understand why things are happening the way they are, but soon enough you’ll know.

Love and let go

2009-10-13T09:43:00.004+08:00

Just happened to passby a website with this post,which i find it quite meaningful and craps? HAHA. i dont know why i used the "crap" word, but meaningful at the same time.

"You meet someone. He’s everything you ever wanted. You fall in love. You get to know each other, and guess what? He loves you too! Sparks are flying, and there’s magic in the air. You get along great, and as time goes by you realize how much you really have fallen for him. It seems nothing could go wrong, you’re both so in love with each other, you share everything together, you’re like an ideal couple, in every sense of the word.

Then it happened. Suddenly, you feel like it’s just not the same anymore. He’s no longer sweet, and thoughtful, and caring. He turned from being the most lovable person to practically a migraine-causing stranger. You wonder what you’ve done to cause such a change. You labor over endless assumptions and analysis just to explain why things aren’t working the way they were between the two of you. You wonder, does he still love me? You pluck up the courage to ask him, but he just shrugs and avoids giving you a definite answer. You feel more frustrated than ever. And yet, his actions are loud and clear, even though he’s not saying it to your face. The love he once had for you, is no longer there.

You try to deny it. You hope. That somehow, maybe… you’re wrong. That perhaps, he still loves you and there’s a perfectly good explanation for the way he’s been acting. You desperately want to believe that things will get better. But you know you’re not happy anymore. You cry yourself to sleep every night, trying to think of ways to save your relationship. Trying to revive a feeling that was once there but has died a natural death, trying to mend something that you know is broken beyond repair. But then you wake up, and the truth is staring you hard in the face, it’s OVER. No matter how much you try to deny it, his chapter in your life has come to an end.

So now comes the painful process of letting go. You know in your heart that you have to, that it’s the right thing to do, but you just can’t! You love him. You need him. So the natural tendency is to hold on. You tell yourself to just hold on… even though you know his heart doesn’t belong to you anymore. You come to a point where you blame yourself for what’s happening. But it’s not your fault. You need to understand that there are certain things in life that you can’t control. They need to happen because God allows them to happen.

It’s hard letting go of someone that we have loved for so long. It’s painful to watch the people we love, walk away from us. But if they want to go, we need to let them go! It’s easier said than done, but then again love is never easy. It hurts like crazy, and it hurts so bad that we feel like we’re about to bleed from so much pain. No one can truly explain how painful it is, without having experienced it themselves. It’s not easy, and it will take time. But know this and trust in this, IT WILL GET BETTER. The age old cliché, “Time heals all wounds“, may sound boring and repetitive, but it’s true. Letting go allows you and your partner to become the people you were meant to be. You can’t control love. You can’t force someone to stay with you, if you know they’re not happy anymore. What you can do is move on. Believe that there’s someone out there who will love you with everything that they have and in the way you deserve to be loved.

If we really and truly love someone, their happiness should mean more to us than our own. It’s called selfless love. So many lovers in the world are put to this kind of test. Ask yourself. How much do you really love him? Do you love him enough to allow him to go where he’s happy, even if it’s no longer with you? Do you love him enough to allow him to be happy without feeling revengeful or bitter? Do you love him enough to let him go?

Letting go doesn’t mean we need to GIVE UP, it just means we need to GIVE IN… give in to the TRUTH, and learn to accept the fact that we may have lost love, but that doesn’t mean we won’t be able to find it again. Maybe we just needed to love the wrong person first, before we finally love the right one. And when we finally meet the one that’s meant for us, we will know, because nothing and no one can ever take that away from us. Understand this. Only then will we be able to see the beauty of LOVE for what it really is, and appreciate the twist and turns of this journey we call LIFE."

2009-10-13T08:55:00.008+08:00

This little monkey here name Pan-kun,
The dog beside is his partner, James.
Both of them is soooo smart and cute!
Watching their video really cheer my days. =)

After watching their video,
You will be totally amazing about what they can do!
Superrrr duperrr smart and cute.

Cartoon and plush versionnn!!!!!!

Kawaii ?????? >.<

Got the urge to bring them back to your home?

Quick go youtube search for their video.

Comfirm wont regret watching it. =)

Just being random

2009-10-12T09:43:00.000+08:00

Random post about that random feeling. =)

As you grow up, you will learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back. Don’t be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

2009-10-09T23:00:00.003+08:00

Its friday again!
I didnt nothing again.
My sup was on leave for these few days.
So i didnt get to see her.

Went j8 for break again,
Just wanna get out of the lab. =X
On the way back, Mr keith singing 3 lady gaga song on the way back to school.

First was Poker Face.
While waiting for the traffic light to turn green,
Kenneth lower down the window.
Next, i saw a auntie beside was looking at our direction laughing!
HOHOHO!

Next, Just dance.

Last was Paparazzi~
Fire??? Because a fire engine passby. xD
Next singapore idol?????????
ermmmmmmm. no comments.

2009-10-08T23:43:00.006+08:00

Every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

I find this sentence very meaningful.
It can have 2 meaning.

1. If you are unhappy now,
you should forget the lame shit that is bothering
you and stop wasting your time on beinging upset over it.

2. If you are happy,
Then always be happy and only happy.
Because you are not wasting your it.

Anyway, she is not going to find any trouble for herself.
Shall just look forward and move on.
This shall be the last post i talking about it.
Even though i expected it to happen,
But i didnt really wish for it to happen.
When i got to know it,
Im stunned and feeling confuse at the same time.
Next was something i never wants.
Anyway everything is over. =)
80% recovered, 20% shall wait to see. HAHA!
IM STILL WAITING TO BE TREATED. HMPH!

oh gosh. Today really had a great laugh in the lab.
The whole lab only left with 5 people at 5.
Now then i realise there are so many left-handed people around me.
Im the only right handed person out of the 5. =X
But im still clever one k! =)
Almost 12! Time to sleep!
Else i will hugging my cushion and sleeping in the lab tml.

2009-10-08T08:57:00.005+08:00

She suddenly craving for food this morning.

She want a cup of this.......
*This look like my kitty cushion that im hugging now.

And...
A set of this bento....

Plus this for dessert.....

I will be thankful if someone manage to get me all these!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-06T23:14:00.002+08:00

Anyway new nice drama coming out, 下一站幸福.
Watched it yesterday, and find it quite okay de.

丁噹 - 我愛他

他的镜框留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来
我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

The girl who acted in the drama is one of my fav actress in taiwan.
The girl who sing the song is one of my fav singer.

2009-10-06T22:25:00.004+08:00

Another rainingday.
Suddenly falling in love with the raining day,
but not the temperature in lab.

Its already day 2 of week 5.
Time passes too fast until im feeling so scared.
I totally did nothing for the past 2 days.
All i did was watching video,watching video,watching video.
Ah fen, you gonna focus pleaseeeeee!
STOP STONING LE!
Dont waste your time and life already.
There is so much things i wanna do,
yet i dont know where and how to start.

Stone for the whole morning,
Then went J8 swensens for lunch,
which take us almost 3hours?
Stone for another 1 hour, then got ready to change for napfa.
Even though i was there,
but i totally dont feel like doing anything.
My result was quite "BEST of the BEST"
I didnt even wanna waste my energy,
I just told the tester straight to mark me 0.
So i ended up only did sit n reach, situp and ran 3 round.
Other then stoning, i dont know how to descibe my life~

My grandma had her eye surgery le.
Everthing is okay for her, so far so good?
She suddenly told me alot yesterday.
Many thoughts came across. =X

There is a friend who told me this, "slow down and all the cheap men will pass you cause the knights carry armour and everything so move slower, So WAIT!"
I smiled, because i felt so silly. HAHA! xD
One word is gonna disappear from her dictionary, at least for now.
Maybe one day i might use that word again, but not now.
But at least everything is better than i expected.

SOMEONE, Please let me bite????????????? =)
Dont bluff me k!

2009-10-03T23:43:00.008+08:00

中秋节.... 下雨天...
No moon, no stars, only dark cloud.

Im not surprise.
From now on, i have my mind will only have project .
At least, i win a meal?

2009-10-02T08:48:00.001+08:00

Early in the morning 845am,
I am still the only one in the lab. XD

Blur fen, this time she really forget to bring her handphone out.
today shall be my phoneless day! *humph*
Its seem alittle werid to me without a phone,
but then i think i wont die without it also. >.<

Anyway today is friday!!!!!!!!!!
No work feeling is there, dont feel like doing anything.
She feeling so tired, she wanna sleep!
I am going to tahan for another few more hours!!!!
Then i can enjoy my weekend. HEHE! =)

2009-10-01T16:22:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHLIDREN DAY! =))
Any present for me? I just wanna be a kid, without project and everything.
I think i used to be very rational, but it seem like i am getting more emotional now.

Its also my Week4 Day4, sound like dead dead, cause 4 4. >.<
My brain is completely dead and i have no intent to continue doing it for today,
The dumb computer still dont wanna detect the dumb IR signal.
This project is like torturing me so much that i even dream of it yesterday night. =X
It have really becoming my nightmare already. arghhhh!

SHE NEED SOME ENTERTAINMENT,
SHE WANT SOMETHING TO MAKE HER HAPPY,
SHE WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING.
*HoHoHoHoHoHo

2009-09-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

Monday blue!

Week 4 Day 1.
Went to see doctor after my school today.
As i expected, gastric flu~~~ what the!
Actually only intent to take the medicine only,
Then since my doctor asked, so just take tml MC also. =))
But i think still will go school tml?
One day dont solve the dumb circuit, one more day of nightmare. arghhhh!
Becoming more and more forgetful and blur.
This morning almost forget to bring my phone out,
Then i left my mp3 in school. >.<

* I think i will dream of mircocontroller, circuit diagram, USB, Infra tonight!

2009-09-25T23:51:00.001+08:00

TGTIF!
Time for enjoyment!
Finally got to meet audreyy after so long,
Watched "accident", eat dinner together and walked around. =)

2009-09-25T08:49:00.001+08:00

FOCUS Please!
The time now is almost 9 yet i am the only person in the lab. =X
I know i am alway early, but i have no intention to start doing the project.
Instead i think it time for games? >.<

Week3's FRIDAY!
Do you what it mean when friday come,
tomorrow is weekend!!!!
Here come my saturday and sunday!! =)
Have to spend my weekened wisely.
But i got the urge to slack at home the whole day to sleep.
I felt so tired everyday.

Anyway.
There is many great movie coming up.
I still deciding which to watch!

This week : Accident, Frame, Inglourious Basterds

Next Week : Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs, Shorts

She is not going to watch any horror or gross movie le.
She just wanna watch some comedy or animation movie.

Saw this sentence at somewhere, so shall blog it into this post also :
Dont let someone be your everything, because when they're gone you have nothing. =)

2009-09-23T23:41:00.004+08:00

I cant sleep~
Werid werid werid.
Usually i should be getting tired or sleepy by this time.
But today i am still kinda awake.
*Dont ask me why, because i also dont know why*

Tml should be the day4 of week 3!
Will be having my first presentation on week6,
but i havent do anything until now?
Anyone who know circuit, happened to passby my blog please help me!?
OR maybe god can enter my dream and tell me how to do it?
I guess i am just too bored,
Tomorrow shall be another dreary day for me.

2009-09-23T09:41:00.003+08:00

RESULT IS OUT!

I am super duper happy with my result expect for the virtualization module, only managed to get C. Arghhhhh! But overall i think i did quite well for this semt. Now i have to concentrate on that stupid dumb FYP, and my coming IAP. Bless me for continuing doing good, or maybe better? =)

My FYP is getting stress for me, asking me to conenct all the dumb circuit which i didnt learn before. Maybe i am just too sway that i got pick by that lecturer! Why cant they give me something like flash!

2009-09-22T14:30:00.010+08:00

Im done with my new blogskin and i think i will be back to blogging soon! =)

Im NOW STUCK in the school, inside that super cold lab!
Suddenly craving for DTF's xiao long bao, due to that super awful xiao long bao i ate yesterday at crystal jade. Its really one heaven and one hell, yet i dont understand why so many people telling me crystal jade one is nice.

Yesterday watched movie, The ugly truth. Its seriously damn funny, worth watching!!! The truth/facts is usually not as beautiful as we thought. Beautiful and perfection will only happen in fairy tales.

So many people reminding me about tml result is OUT! Should just let me forget about it! I dont feel like knowing my result! >.<

2009-09-21T23:30:00.003+08:00

Maybe i am avoiding,
Maybe i am running away.

i hate my indecisiveness.
BUT ITS MY PROBLEM! =)

welcome back!

2009-09-10T12:14:00.003+08:00

Week2Day1!
Good morningggggggg!!!
cant stop myself from yawning!
Kinda tired even though i just came back from my weekend.
Why did weekend time passes so fast, while school time passes so slow.

Week1day4 : waiting for time to pass

2009-09-10T12:14:00.002+08:00

last semt was busy with school project and studies,
but i guess i will be super free for this semt.
So will be back for blogging! =)

FYP -
everyday 0830 to 1800,
everyday counting down to when the day end.

Project -
Hmm. still not yet figure out what and how am i going to do my project.
Its kinda diffcult and mission impossible for me? HAHA!
left with 11weeks + 1 days, got to start doing something~~

2009-08-04T14:21:00.004+08:00

Fen Fen in her wonderland!
She is having bad headache now and always... =(

I seriously have no idea what i am doing or what i can do. What went wrong?
Feeling suddenly lost.

2009-08-01T01:40:00.002+08:00

This blog is really rotting!! HAHA!
Shall start to update something!! =))

she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired!she is tired! she is tired!she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired! she is tired!

What a busy semt i had? I seriously missing the time during my year 1 & 2!!!! Her mind is about school stuff most of the time. Everything project OR report OR presentation. Finally, the end of week 15, all presentation done. Upcoming week 16, still left with another 1 project+Report, 1 assignment, 1 lab test and 1 quiz. Then week 17 i shall welcome my 2 common test paper. Soon, my 3 exam papers??!!!?? Everything will end in one month time!! Simply, cant wait for that day to come!!!!

2009-06-08T21:40:00.001+08:00

Afew more days to my term break. ^_^
I am super looking forward to that day?
Even though term break equal to do project,
It is much much much better facing ..... =X

Am i stubborn?????
Maybe not? Maybe alittle???

HATE IT

2009-06-01T19:54:00.003+08:00

Week 7 - When my nightmare began.

I shall not comment too much on what is happening in school,
Because I got nothing to say??

I hate being accused!
But i felt nothing this time round.
I feeling so numb to everything.

when will i wake up from my nightmare?

Week 5

2009-05-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

Time passes super duper fast?
Its already week5.
And i think i learn nothing so far???
Almost all lab is installing installing installing.
Lecture is always so bored.

Week5! what a week!!
2 Presentation, 1 Report, 1 Assignment, 1 LabTest~

She need more than 24 hours a day~ >.<

week 2

2009-04-27T23:02:00.003+08:00

Week 2.
This is the second week of the school.
yet i have skipped my first lecture.

I really dont know how am i going to surive for this semt.
But i know i have to.
I guess life toward to P&P!
PROJECTSSSSS & PRESENTATION!!!!!!

wisdom teeth - LEFT 2!!!!!!
Can i get rid of u once and for all??
EXTRA EXTRA EXTRA~

Feeling so drowsy after eating the medicine.

2009-04-25T09:44:00.001+08:00

Recieved an email from a friend.
Everyone please watch this video and feel how blessed you are.

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

Its so sad to see the poor children's smiles on the leftover foods, and yet we always have too much to eat...

We all take things for granted in life where so many others around us suffering in slience.

Please appreciate and be grateful in every little aspects.

We all have a duty of responsibility to look after everyone but unfortunately we are not doing that. If we cared as much for

other people as we did for ourselves we would have a truly beautiful society.

The fact however is we don't....

2009-04-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

School started.
Everything back to normal.
I seriously hate this semt timetable.
But no choice~ Got to used to it soon!

Year 3 is really a tough year.
so many project and presentation.
almost all module have exam also.

super nice song~ ^ ^

2009-04-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

LYRIC~~
从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中

其实这份爱没停过
曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

2009-04-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a lesson we had well learned

Today we are still going thru a learning process

Tomorrow we will be a better learnt person

2009-04-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

原来我.........

没有想像中坚强.

2009-04-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

BLEAHHHHH!!!!

Its APRIL FOOL!

RESULT~

2009-03-18T11:26:00.002+08:00

RESULT is OUT! Damn it!!!
I hate this semt result!!!
Result of slacking too much!! >.<

Superrrrrr tired!!

2009-03-17T09:02:00.006+08:00

Hohohoho!!
Back to singapore!!
Now i realise how lucky am i to stay at developed country!!!
I really really cannot stand staying at those developing one!

Went over to china there to attend funeral,
Everything was so rush and sudden!
We brought the ticket only a few hour before the flight,
Not much time to pack and get ready.
took 4 hours of airplane plus another 3 hours+ of car journey!
Sit until i really wanna die.
By the time, we reaches the village is already about evening time.

Everything was so different from here.
It is soooooo COLD!!!
The enviorment is so unhygienic! HAHA!
Shit can be found on the road! xD
Cow doing the farming!
Then still got all those animals~

But it was the first time i wore so many clothes!!!!!
I wore my polo tee,
then they ask me to wear a long sleeve knitted shirt
Plus those winter jacket and my jacket!
Imgine i wear so many clothes + 2 super thick blanket to sleep,
And i still feel super cold. >.<

The only thing i like there was the night sceney!
Because there is no lamp post, no light,
You can see alot alot alot of starsssss!!
It is really damn nice, got bei ji xin n etc.
Like what we seem on tv!!!

Their food taste alittle weird,
but they eat about 8-10 dishes per MEAL!
THEN!!!! AFTER each meal, A packet of cigarettes for everyone. =.=
No wonder all people smoke there!

As i say, i am not there to play.
The funeral process also superrrrrrrr different.
Somemore i also dont understand their language~
I blur blur follow what i was told to do which was a little werid!
Then the next day,
We have to walk he out the village,
which mean we have to walk the whole village *almost an hour?
before we can take the transport to send the coffin to burn.
After everything is settle, we still got to change our clothes to red,
represent good luck and etcc~

Actually this trip changes me quite alot.
At that moment i really feel kinda of scare.
How i wishhhh. =X
And i am glad i am back! >.<

Superrrrrr tired!!

2009-03-17T08:22:00.000+08:00

ANGELINE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Missed her celebration because of the trip,
but they saved a piece of cake for meee! Weeeee
Then still got a present!
A piggy handpone strip! >.<

2009-02-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

I am free from exam n school!
Weeeee!

2009-02-20T10:22:00.001+08:00

Exam period!!!
HOHOHO!!
Finished 2 paper already,
Now only left with the last paper! Jiayou? ^.^
i really cant wait till exam is over.
How i wish exam is already over!
nvm! another 3days! *bleah

My lappy is still in the spoil mood!
I have no idea what to do with it~
Life without computer.... HMMM!
There is still another 2-3 week until IT fair.
arghhh!

Her life is in a mess!!!!!!!.
Bless her?

2009-02-10T22:25:00.001+08:00

I wont be updating my blog recently.
My lappy is completely k.o le~
motherboard spoil = GG~
Weeeeee~

2009-02-06T21:12:00.002+08:00

Common Test is finally over!
Now 11Days to first exam papers!
Shall left everything till after exam.

Guilty!

Try this!!!

2009-02-03T20:33:00.009+08:00

Friends, you can try it!
_______________________________________________________

First, identify yourself as right or left brain person:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying.
Look at your hands. If you see

Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain
Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brian

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are
angry)

Right arm above left arm ---> left brain
Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+2 (order important), below is the
interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left
==========
Considerate, traditional, indirect type

can instinctly read other's emotion, and respond
friendly by natures. Although not very into
taking initiatives in moving forward, but this
person
will always take a step back in supporting
others. Stable personality and considerate, give
others a being protected feeling. But the
weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how
unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right
===========
Loves challenges type

Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will
take action right away. Very curious, and
love challenges. Dare to face dangers without
thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their
weakness is they don't listen to others, will filter
in only what whey want to hear in a
conversation, and very subjective. However, because
of their straightforward attitude, they tend
to be fairly popular.

Left-Left
=========
Dedicated, cold, perfectionist

Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat
(or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has
a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing
the right thing. If they are your friends, they
are very trustworthy. However, if they are your
opponents, they will be very tough to deal with.
Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist,
they usually leave a bad impression of being
hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right
==========
Likes to take care of others, leader type
Has a cool and keen observation ability to see
through situations, yet still can be considerate in
others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature,
and strong sense of responsibility, they tend
to become head of a group. Popular among people.
However, they may not be able to help themselves
in meddling because they want to take care of others
too much. Very concerned about how others
view them, and always on alert.

2009-02-03T20:15:00.000+08:00

Okay i found this website for about tarot cards.
It is like a simple quiz? or test?
TO find out which tarot card u belong to.
And i belong to........

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

Hmmmm.. abit lame!
Why am doing thing that i will so lame? xD

week 17

2009-02-03T17:02:00.002+08:00

bleah bleah bleah!
This is already week 17..
Everything already done!
HAd my IS lab Test, Rad, Ntp presentation.
What left with this semt is common test and Exam!!

3 paper for this weeek.
Then another 3 paper in another 2 weeks?

Hohohohoh!!!
Why everyone is talking about valentine!
IT is JUST another normal day~

2009-01-31T01:04:00.002+08:00

Updated new blgskins.
Updated new song list.

She seriously love the singer of those song.
She really a superrrrrrr nice voice.
Take a break, listen to her song.
It will help to relax? ^ ^
Sit back and enjoy? =P

2009-01-28T04:00:00.001+08:00

my Biggest mistake!
I cant do anything to change~
There is also nothing i can do!

There isnt any second chance in life~
There isnt any person not enough enough for another?

2009-01-24T21:40:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! WEeeeee!
GOng xi fa cai? any ang bao for meeeeE??

Maybe everyone have a good new year!

soooooooooooo unsure what i am doing?

2009-01-22T22:48:00.003+08:00

Anyway! i pressed the "send" button already.
Leaving the rest to fate~!
I dont intent to bother anymore!
Just wait for the result and see~

What a new year!!!!!
Nothing gone right for her!
Losing her voice on a presenation day.
AT THIS TIME AGAIN!
ARghhhhhhhhhh!

Test Test Test!!!
Quiz Quiz Quiz!!!
Common TESTTTT!!!
EXAMSSSSSSSSSS!!!

2009-01-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

i dont know what i am doing.
I am not doing what i should!!!!!!!!!!

For this week,
I am still left with 1 Test, 1 Lab TEst and 1 Presentation.
I guess i am really aging!!
All festive is nothing to me anymore.
Not looking forward, dont feel like celebrating!

It isnt that good to be so clever.
Sometime being stupid might be better!

I hate week 15!!

2009-01-19T21:10:00.003+08:00

Firstly......
ARGHHHHHHHH!
Tml is my doom day!
DDI Quiz, RAD Lab Test and NTP presentation!
HOLYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!
But my mind is still about the story book!
I CANT CONCENTRATEEEEE!!!!

Secondly...
My belly stud dropped!
NO SCARRRR PLEASE!!!!
Already 4 monthssssssss.
Why do it have to drop at this time... =X

FLuuuuu is coming back to me again? oh noooooooooo!!

2009-01-18T23:52:00.001+08:00

SHE NEED THE NEXT BOOK NOWWWWW!!!
ARGHHHH!!

Addition Post!

2009-01-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

I shall type my blog slowly!!!!
In case of any typo error?????????? =.=

I AM SOOOOOO SORRY HUH~

I posted 2 entries a day okay!!
SOmemore both is more than a word. =P

TWILIGHT ADDICITION

2009-01-17T23:30:00.004+08:00

TIME TO UPDATE!!!
SOmeone accused me for not updating.
My last entries is only 3 days ago.
Yet he said i havent been updating my blog.
Saying i should have at least blog a word, "BORing".
Now i am going to write more than a word kkkk!! xD

I FINISHED READING TWILIGHT!!!! Yeahhhhhhhh!
I spent almost my whole night reading it.
Until i read finish!!
I am completely addicited to the story.

I shall start reading my new moon! =P

I think please dont be surprise if i am short slighted!
bookworm fennnnn =P

我可以划一个圈当做是完美句点吗?

2009-01-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

Exam timetable is OUT!!!!!
But WHERE is common test timetable???

17 feb 2009 - Network technology Paper
19 feb 2009 - Database Design & Implementation
23 feb 2009 - Object-Oriented Analysis & Design

23 feb is the last day of her suffering dayssss! ^ ^

ANYWAY.
I think common test will be around chinese new year.
I got so many movie that i want to watch.
SO many thing i wanna do..

The Wedding Game, Inkheart, Bride Wars. . . . . . .

There is nothing to be happy in my life.
SO should i be happy?????

Just another dayyyy!

2009-01-14T23:02:00.003+08:00

I am getting slacker each day!
I have a list of stuff to do,
Yet i am still kinda of relaxing!!
Girl, it is time to give yourself some stress!!
IT IS TIME TO STUDYYYYY AND DO YOUR WORK!!!
YOU ARE NOT HARDWORKING ENOUGH! =(
*hump*

AIM project submission is this friday!
And i have not finish it! *PRAY PRAY PRAY*
Today skipped the lecture,
Because was kinda of tired and wanting to do the AIM,
But we ended watch a movie?? HAHAHA xD

Anyway that was a nice movie!
"The Woman" is a story about real life.
The main character's husband have an affair,
She got fired by his father,
Then she and her daughter cant get along
And her best friend "betrayed" her.
She faced the biggest problemssss in her life,
Yet she managed to stand up, fulfill her own dreams,
becoming a designer and set up a brand of her own.

This is a small small world!!!
Saw yan at mall after movie.
Then we realise that we watched the same movie.
SOooooooo Qiaooooo?? =X

What should i choose!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-13T10:18:00.005+08:00

Anyone can tell me what is ITSM about!!
AND WHY did i choose that??
AND WHY did i got into that???
AND SHOULD i appeal???
THEN WHAT should i appeal toooooo!!!!!

ARGHHHHHH!!!
It is such a headache matter to decide.
There is only 4 choice for the specialist!
1. Infocomm soultion
2. Communication and networking
3. Interactive media
4. IT service management

Seee arhhhh!
I hate programming.... so Infocomm soultion is OUT!
I hate networking..... so Communication and networking is OUT!!
I hate doing flash.... so Interactive media is also OUT!!!
left with the ITSM which i completely have no idea about it!!!!!

So WHYYYYYY DID I GOT INTO THIS COURSE IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!!
I ALSOOOOOOOOOOO DONT KNOWWWW!!!
BLESS ME! =.=

Michelle Big Big day!

2009-01-11T00:45:00.004+08:00

10.01.2009 - She got married!!!!!!

It is such a big big day for herrrr~
Who who who? she is my cousin.
Actually they have already ROM a few years back?
But now then offically had their wedding dinner.
She is only afew years older than me.
And now, she is married!
She looked super lovely in her dress,
Now i understand why people say
woman looks the best on their wedding!!! xD

Even though i dont really believe in relationship or love.
she is the only one that proved me wrong.
Looking at their video,
the process of them from realtionship till marriage,
Both of them is still real sweet till now!!
Envy? Maybe? HAHA!

LET IT OUT!!!
Anyway...
People that know me well enough
should know i hate my dad side relatives.
I dont see them,
I dont know them,
I dont have any memory of them.
But i know i dislike them!!!!!!!!!!!
Not only me, my brother and sister is also feeling the same.
To me, they are a bunch of strangers.
Strangers that i hated!!!
Every seconds of facing them is tough.
I felt so hypocrite facing them.
Forcing to put on that smile on my face,
Just for the sake of my parent.
Expecting me to greet them? No way!
If not because of her getting marry.
I will never wish to see them again. =.=

2009-01-10T04:55:00.002+08:00

Okay. The end of friday.
Welcome my saturday morning~~
One week passed like this.
It is really real fast.

Soon will be Submission of projects,
presentation, lab test and quizzzzz!!!
Then Examssssssssss.
Can she say "no" to everything?????? =X

what is the defination of "right time"?
When is "right time"?

2009-01-05T23:40:00.005+08:00

weeeeeeee~
Last episode of Little Nyonya.
Afterall it is a niceeeeeee drama!
She LOVE Jeanette Aw!
And i am addicited to the song.

愿意合上眼才能美梦无边
别让悔熏乌了从前

也许碎片才能让回忆展颜
何妨瓷花拼凑明天

谁带我寻获幸福的模
却自己谜中困锁

谁为我留下缱绻的天涯
信物是抹晚霞

Chorus:
思念如燕它飞舞舌尖
若是真爱配尝几分苦甜

意念婆娑时间里推磨
追随到何处才结果

燕如针线在青空缝编
几幅女红将以泪缀点

誓言斑驳情雾只是经过
风雨中且让我盈步婀娜

NOW I think she will be stressed up for the next few weeks.
Boring school life.
Now she is looking forward to exams then holidays. *GOne CRAZY! *
School is never fun for her.

B e l i e v e i n D R E A M & P o W e R O f M i n d ???

心理測驗

2009-01-05T22:23:00.009+08:00

[心理測驗]測驗你的火爆脾氣
在寒冷的空氣中，毛線會帶來溫暖的感覺，要是收到別人親手編織的毛線衣，更是幸福一路到底的心情。你會希望收到以下那種色彩的毛線衣呢？

Ａ. 綠色
Ｂ. 咖啡色
Ｃ. 粉色或紅色系
Ｄ. 白色或米白色系

選擇Ａ的人

你是個冷靜取勝的人，在你心裡，認為有理走遍天下，當有狀況發生時，你首先會壓抑怒氣，努力向對方說理，把事情是非交代清楚。這是你處理衝突的方法，但有時秀才也會遇到兵，碰上無理取鬧的人，有理也說不清時，那你可就會怒火中燒，儘快離開現場。

選擇Ｂ的人

你平時是有話就說的人，因此當有人惹到你時，你也不會是忍氣吞聲的角色，尤其是對方沒理卻還敢大小聲，那就會立即點燃你不甘示弱的火氣，先發一頓脾氣是常態，給對方一點下馬威，宣示不是軟腳蝦的立場，雙方面紅耳赤的場面你也不會懼怕，反正有理你一定要爭到底，直到對方說對不起才罷休。

選擇Ｃ的人

當你和他人意見相左時，其實你不見得會生氣，要引爆你的脾氣火藥庫，除非是對方欺人太甚，尤其是採取欺騙你的手段，把黑說成白，最後要是被你發現，那事情可就大條了，這會讓你想要翻臉，徹底戳穿對方的假面具；就算你考慮其他因素，隱忍沒當場發作，以後再也不會信任曾欺騙你的人了。

選擇Ｄ的人

要引爆你的脾氣導火線，是一件不簡單的任務，因為你生氣時，其實也不會當眾動怒，你寧願一個人默默生悶氣，也不想說出來，更不要說當場發飆罵人，失去了你的風度，但是你難看的臉色，還是向所有看到你的人，用ＳＮＧ宣告了非常不爽的心情呢。

I choose D.
Not someone that wil get angry easily,
But when i really get angry,
Usually i wont say out.
But everything shows on my face. xD
Superrrr accurate? =X
_____________________________________________________

你是不是談戀愛就變笨？
某一天和朋友去爬山健走，卻不小心遇到山難，你會最怕遇到底下哪一種山難？
A.被土石流捲走
B.被落石活埋
C.失足墜落山谷
D.被壞人砍死棄屍

選擇A的人─蠢情指數：30%
基本上你面對感情的態度可謂相當理智，甚至可以說是大而化之，使得你的戀情總是在平順中度過。只
是感情若是缺乏激情，久而久之也是會淡掉甚至在不知不覺中消逝。建議你:不妨常常給你的情人來一些
小驚喜，維持感情的熱度可是你應當積極去做的喔。

選擇B的人─蠢情指數：70%
其實你是個佔有慾相當強的人，有時雖想維持適度的理智不作多餘的聯想，可是對於感情中突如其來的
突發狀況，卻總顯得有些措手不及。其實你已經算是個好情人了，建議你可以多準備一些幽默的方式來
應付這些狀況，免得讓一時的情緒衝動毀了一生的幸福喔。

選擇C的人─蠢情指數：50%
感情上你不是一個太死心眼的人，只是有些禁忌觸碰不得，旁人可能不覺得有什麼，甚至會被你突然的
大動作嚇到，感到莫名奇妙！我會建議你：不知者無罪！就算是情人，他的生活體驗也跟你不同，別要
急著生氣好好溝通即可。如果他再犯，再來發飆也不遲。

選擇D的人─蠢情指數：90%
其實不用測驗你大概心裡也有個底，自己在感情的情緒拿捏並不怎麼優秀，也常常會做出一些讓自己後
悔懊惱的事。其實很多事情本來沒什麼，只是你過頭鑽牛角尖，拼老命往壞處去聯想而已。建議你下次
如果受不了，就把情人帶開獨處去吧，你只是無法戒掉對情人愛的依賴而已。

You know what the conculsion??
Everyone get stupid when they fall in love.
I think nobody is expection? xD