Week 8 Day 5.
Soon the end of week 8 and i left 4 weeks of FYP! =)






ITs not raining today, but yet im feeling so down.

Everything is not right.
Ever since my FYP started, nothing seem right for me. "Something" bad always happen when i want to work hard, why cant everything go smoothly for me? >_<





Just for today. =)

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it. -- Groucho Marx

Gambatta fenn!!!
She know she can do it.





im still not a fake IT/SEG student? HAHA!
At least i still know how "LAN" and "WAN" work? XD
I cured my Router faulty already!







Front Row : Shamin, Kenneth, Luntat, Melvyn, Keith
Back Row: BATMAN?!?!?!, Huifen, Jieying, Atiqah, Halifah, Sarah, Pegan
Missing In Action : LeeEng, Suet, Nora, Eunice, Maurice, Nigel, Kartik, . . . . . . . .
Done by melvyn! =) *Is this part of your project?
Class 0708 With BATMAN!!!!
Celebration of LUNTAT Birthday!
But why is the Batman standing beside me? =X





I learn a new terms. =)

commitment phobia

Fear of commitment in much popular literature refers to avoidance of long-term partnership and/or marriage but the problem is often much more pervasive, affecting school, work, and home life as well.

The term commitmentphobia was coined in the popular self-help book Men Who Can't Love in 1987. Following criticism of the perceived sexist idea that only men were commitmentphobic, the authors provided a more gender balanced model of commitmentphobia in a later work, He's Scared, She's Scared.

Commitmentphobia is often most strongly apparent in romantic life. Generally, commitmentphobic people claim that they are eager to find a lasting romantic attachment and get married, yet they fail to find appropriate partners and maintain longlasting connections. Ironically, in these romantic relationships, the commitmentphobic partner craves what he/she fears most: love and connection. This paradoxical craving for a frightening reality leads to a confusing and destructive pattern of seduction and rejection. The results are emotionally devastating.

The key to understanding commitmentphobia is recognizing that such behavior is rooted in fear—fear of lost options or fear of making poor decisions. The commitmentphobic mind sees decisions as permanent, opening the possibility of being caged or trapped forever with no means of escape. Commitmentphobia is a real disabling fear, that can be manifest in many areas of life, including career, home ownership, or even shoe shopping. This fear can make simple every day decisions into a tremendous burden.

To assuage their anxieties, many commitmentphobics become fantasy-driven, using their active imaginations to fill in for the lack of emotional security and closeness in their lives. Of course, these fantasies pose additional problems because no potential partner, car, or job can ever live up to the fantasy. Commitmentphobics are also prone to self-destructive behavior, such as walking out on partners or jobs without notice, leaving themselves and the people in their lives in untenable situations.

One potentially misleading aspect of commitmentphobic behavior is that the partner who is actively running away from commitment is not the only one with a problem. In fact, commitmentphobic behavior includes "settling" for inappropriate partners, pursuing unattainable partners, and engaging in instant relationship mergers as well as fleeing from what might have appeared to be a stable romance. Any persistent behavior that actively prevents a person from making a commitment or allows a person to make excuses for not having made a commitment can be considered commitmentphobic.

Comments : Werid!

I think i have this? do i? HAHA!







You have nothing to worry about because whatever problem you are faced with ends with a solution. (That is the nature of a problem. The solution is not separate from it, but the other part of it, just as up and down define each other.) You either fix it and continue with your plans, or the problem destroys the current trajectory of your life and you head off on another path. One set of solutions is positive, the other negative, but one way or another, the problem is solved.

In most cases, no matter how bad the problem you are faced with seems, for some reason you evolved a powerful instinct to survive, and that is going to be what drives you to solve your problem and go on with life. But you know that at some point, in all likelihood, you’ll meet a problem which resolves itself in your death. You may hate admitting that, but there is no getting around it (that I know of), and when you die you won’t have the problem anymore, and the world may mourn you but it will certainly go on, until one day it dies and it will be as if you and everyone else never were.

This doesn’t mean “Don’t worry.” Worrying is natural, so is sadness, grief… When the worry turns to a fear that consumes us, having faith that everything will be okay is the relief. Existence is a strange blend, a state where opposites are inextricably linked, and it’s just going to do its thing. Existence is going to be violent and peaceful, happy and sad, black and white, up and down, off and on, everything and nothing, the same as it always has. Whatever God is, your existence now is proof positive that God will take care of you, God will always find a place for you to be or not to be.

Worrying and being able to solve your problems are really just tricks you play to engage your interest until you come to the point where you can no longer find things interesting or boring.

When I get depressed, these are the thoughts that pass the time now, because generally I get depressed about things that don’t need me to directly worry about my survival or comfort. I think, “Now I am in the trough of the wave,” and I think about the ocean of crests and troughs to come. But there is a time and a place for this sort of passivity, and you’ll know it when your mind insists on it out of exhaustion. Just because everything will certainly be OK doesn’t mean you should squander, give up, or ignore the faculties you have that can help you deal with your problems.

"May we never let the things we can't have, or don't have, or shouldn't have, spoil our enjoyment of the things we do have and can have. As we value our happiness let us not forget it, for one of the greatest lessons in life is learning to be happy without the things we cannot or should not have."

女人，长得漂亮不如活得漂亮 =)





SCHOOL IS CRAZY!
First day of school reopen, and its freaking crowded.
I still perfer the haunted school,
that i used to have for the past 6 weeks.
Now feeling so werid when im in my lab. =X





Woooo! Its friday again.
Coming to the end of week 6. Time files! =)
Done with my mid-fyp presentation.
My marker not very nice, keep asking question.
Making my life so hard? >.<
Shall be it,
Next week someone will be joining me for hell. xD
Hate the temperature in mylab when it rains.!

OKAY!
Im super duper tired now.
Slept at 1200, but woke up at 1230.
All thanks to my sister and her boyfriend. =.=
Luckily i manage to sleep back at around 3am?
So total i slept for around 3 1/2 hours?
Having a bad headache now. i miss my bed. >.<

Everything happens for a reason, what’s supposed to happen will happen… if things don’t go your way, it can be stressful, painful, and hard, but you don’t always have to be in control. It’s all just a part of the grand scheme of things. Don’t let your emotions cloud your vision. Don’t ever fail to see the bigger picture. You may not understand why things are happening the way they are, but soon enough you’ll know.





Just happened to passby a website with this post,which i find it quite meaningful and craps? HAHA. i dont know why i used the "crap" word, but meaningful at the same time.


"You meet someone. He’s everything you ever wanted. You fall in love. You get to know each other, and guess what? He loves you too! Sparks are flying, and there’s magic in the air. You get along great, and as time goes by you realize how much you really have fallen for him. It seems nothing could go wrong, you’re both so in love with each other, you share everything together, you’re like an ideal couple, in every sense of the word.

Then it happened. Suddenly, you feel like it’s just not the same anymore. He’s no longer sweet, and thoughtful, and caring. He turned from being the most lovable person to practically a migraine-causing stranger. You wonder what you’ve done to cause such a change. You labor over endless assumptions and analysis just to explain why things aren’t working the way they were between the two of you. You wonder, does he still love me? You pluck up the courage to ask him, but he just shrugs and avoids giving you a definite answer. You feel more frustrated than ever. And yet, his actions are loud and clear, even though he’s not saying it to your face. The love he once had for you, is no longer there.

You try to deny it. You hope. That somehow, maybe… you’re wrong. That perhaps, he still loves you and there’s a perfectly good explanation for the way he’s been acting. You desperately want to believe that things will get better. But you know you’re not happy anymore. You cry yourself to sleep every night, trying to think of ways to save your relationship. Trying to revive a feeling that was once there but has died a natural death, trying to mend something that you know is broken beyond repair. But then you wake up, and the truth is staring you hard in the face, it’s OVER. No matter how much you try to deny it, his chapter in your life has come to an end.

So now comes the painful process of letting go. You know in your heart that you have to, that it’s the right thing to do, but you just can’t! You love him. You need him. So the natural tendency is to hold on. You tell yourself to just hold on… even though you know his heart doesn’t belong to you anymore. You come to a point where you blame yourself for what’s happening. But it’s not your fault. You need to understand that there are certain things in life that you can’t control. They need to happen because God allows them to happen.

It’s hard letting go of someone that we have loved for so long. It’s painful to watch the people we love, walk away from us. But if they want to go, we need to let them go! It’s easier said than done, but then again love is never easy. It hurts like crazy, and it hurts so bad that we feel like we’re about to bleed from so much pain. No one can truly explain how painful it is, without having experienced it themselves. It’s not easy, and it will take time. But know this and trust in this, IT WILL GET BETTER. The age old cliché, “Time heals all wounds“, may sound boring and repetitive, but it’s true. Letting go allows you and your partner to become the people you were meant to be. You can’t control love. You can’t force someone to stay with you, if you know they’re not happy anymore. What you can do is move on. Believe that there’s someone out there who will love you with everything that they have and in the way you deserve to be loved.

If we really and truly love someone, their happiness should mean more to us than our own. It’s called selfless love. So many lovers in the world are put to this kind of test. Ask yourself. How much do you really love him? Do you love him enough to allow him to go where he’s happy, even if it’s no longer with you? Do you love him enough to allow him to be happy without feeling revengeful or bitter? Do you love him enough to let him go?

Letting go doesn’t mean we need to GIVE UP, it just means we need to GIVE IN… give in to the TRUTH, and learn to accept the fact that we may have lost love, but that doesn’t mean we won’t be able to find it again. Maybe we just needed to love the wrong person first, before we finally love the right one. And when we finally meet the one that’s meant for us, we will know, because nothing and no one can ever take that away from us. Understand this. Only then will we be able to see the beauty of LOVE for what it really is, and appreciate the twist and turns of this journey we call LIFE."







This little monkey here name Pan-kun,
The dog beside is his partner, James.
Both of them is soooo smart and cute!
Watching their video really cheer my days. =)


After watching their video,
You will be totally amazing about what they can do!
Superrrr duperrr smart and cute.








Random post about that random feeling. =)


As you grow up, you will learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back. Don’t be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.





Its friday again!
I didnt nothing again.
My sup was on leave for these few days.
So i didnt get to see her.

Went j8 for break again,
Just wanna get out of the lab. =X
On the way back, Mr keith singing 3 lady gaga song on the way back to school.



First was Poker Face.
While waiting for the traffic light to turn green,
Kenneth lower down the window.
Next, i saw a auntie beside was looking at our direction laughing!
HOHOHO!


Next, Just dance.


Last was Paparazzi~
Fire??? Because a fire engine passby. xD
Next singapore idol?????????
ermmmmmmm. no comments.






Every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

I find this sentence very meaningful.
It can have 2 meaning.

1. If you are unhappy now,
you should forget the lame shit that is bothering
you and stop wasting your time on beinging upset over it.

2. If you are happy,
Then always be happy and only happy.
Because you are not wasting your it.

Anyway, she is not going to find any trouble for herself.
Shall just look forward and move on.
This shall be the last post i talking about it.
Even though i expected it to happen,
But i didnt really wish for it to happen.
When i got to know it,
Im stunned and feeling confuse at the same time.
Next was something i never wants.
Anyway everything is over. =)
80% recovered, 20% shall wait to see. HAHA!
IM STILL WAITING TO BE TREATED. HMPH!

oh gosh. Today really had a great laugh in the lab.
The whole lab only left with 5 people at 5.
Now then i realise there are so many left-handed people around me.
Im the only right handed person out of the 5. =X
But im still clever one k! =)
Almost 12! Time to sleep!
Else i will hugging my cushion and sleeping in the lab tml.





She suddenly craving for food this morning.

She want a cup of this.......
*This look like my kitty cushion that im hugging now.


And...
A set of this bento....



Plus this for dessert.....



I will be thankful if someone manage to get me all these!!!!!!!!!





Anyway new nice drama coming out, 下一站幸福.
Watched it yesterday, and find it quite okay de.



丁噹 - 我愛他


他的镜框留在某一节车厢
地下铁里的风比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来
我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最重的荒唐


如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

The girl who acted in the drama is one of my fav actress in taiwan.
The girl who sing the song is one of my fav singer.







Another rainingday.
Suddenly falling in love with the raining day,
but not the temperature in lab.






Its already day 2 of week 5.
Time passes too fast until im feeling so scared.
I totally did nothing for the past 2 days.
All i did was watching video,watching video,watching video.
Ah fen, you gonna focus pleaseeeeee!
STOP STONING LE!
Dont waste your time and life already.
There is so much things i wanna do,
yet i dont know where and how to start.

Stone for the whole morning,
Then went J8 swensens for lunch,
which take us almost 3hours?
Stone for another 1 hour, then got ready to change for napfa.
Even though i was there,
but i totally dont feel like doing anything.
My result was quite "BEST of the BEST"
I didnt even wanna waste my energy,
I just told the tester straight to mark me 0.
So i ended up only did sit n reach, situp and ran 3 round.
Other then stoning, i dont know how to descibe my life~

My grandma had her eye surgery le.
Everthing is okay for her, so far so good?
She suddenly told me alot yesterday.
Many thoughts came across. =X

There is a friend who told me this, "slow down and all the cheap men will pass you cause the knights carry armour and everything so move slower, So WAIT!"
I smiled, because i felt so silly. HAHA! xD
One word is gonna disappear from her dictionary, at least for now.
Maybe one day i might use that word again, but not now.
But at least everything is better than i expected.

SOMEONE, Please let me bite????????????? =)
Dont bluff me k!

























中秋节.... 下雨天...
No moon, no stars, only dark cloud.

Im not surprise.
From now on, i have my mind will only have project .
At least, i win a meal?





Early in the morning 845am,
I am still the only one in the lab. XD

Blur fen, this time she really forget to bring her handphone out.
today shall be my phoneless day! *humph*
Its seem alittle werid to me without a phone,
but then i think i wont die without it also. >.<

Anyway today is friday!!!!!!!!!!
No work feeling is there, dont feel like doing anything.
She feeling so tired, she wanna sleep!
I am going to tahan for another few more hours!!!!
Then i can enjoy my weekend. HEHE! =)





HAPPY CHLIDREN DAY! =))
Any present for me? I just wanna be a kid, without project and everything.
I think i used to be very rational, but it seem like i am getting more emotional now.

Its also my Week4 Day4, sound like dead dead, cause 4 4. >.<
My brain is completely dead and i have no intent to continue doing it for today,
The dumb computer still dont wanna detect the dumb IR signal.
This project is like torturing me so much that i even dream of it yesterday night. =X
It have really becoming my nightmare already. arghhhh!

SHE NEED SOME ENTERTAINMENT,
SHE WANT SOMETHING TO MAKE HER HAPPY,
SHE WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING.
*HoHoHoHoHoHo